Blog anxiety

It has come to this. I lament the lack of blog entries. I have a plethora of ideas swirling around my head however my apparent apathy prevents me from writing.

I’m trying to work out why I don’t. I have a few theories and though I'm no psychologist, I am aware of my own anxieties.

There is one major anxiety...

I am not very good at typing. As a digital native, its something that I am quite ashamed of.

Computers were there from the moment of my birth although they weren't in my general vicinity, they did exist. Heck. If we are talking about typing, the QWERTY keyboard had been around since before my grandmother who I might add, could touch type perfectly on her old black Remington typewriter.

Whilst Nana, could type, read a document and hold a conversation at the same time, while writing this I’m staring at my fingers looking to where the keys are. The tendons in my fingers know quite well where they are. I just don't trust them.

My neck is slanted forward over the keyboard like a monk over a medieval manuscript, they main difference being that the monk knows what he is doing,I, on the other hand, do not.

The monk and well as my Nanna would never make a mistake whilst working away, in contrast is me where wrong, incorrect spelling and grammatical errors are punch into the keyboard then bing revealed as I look up by a dotted red line under the offending words.

These red lines fill me with dread. I should know how to type. The principal of my primary school taught a class in typing.

We were huddled in a classroom with little red keyboards, a tying in “the quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.” I think he knew that one day typing would become important. So much that I got my typing license well before I got my pen license.

I guess I could write entries in pen and then transpose them into a typed form. I’m quite good at handwriting, I do prefer to handwrite letters and have spent an amount of money on fancy pens and paper. 

With pen and paper I can write as fast as my brain and I can see what I am writing as I write (apologies to the lefties out there)

There is still a problem. 

To get it from the paper to blog, I still need to type it.

I should probably find a way to deal with this, just suck it up and deal with it.

Yep, thats what I have to do. Damn.